Learning to Just Trust – And Let Go

December 5 – Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

Without going into too much detail about my personal life, the one thing I am letting go of this year is the trust issues I have been having with my boyfriend of over 4.5 years.

No, it has not always been this way – we went through a little rough patch some time ago that caused me to be hurt and suspicious. But time and time again, Michael (my bf) has given his word to me that there is nothing for me to feel insecure about, and that his love and loyalties have been with me this whole time.

So without any real evidence either way that something was or wasn’t going on, I have decided to go with my gut instincts and learn to trust again. I know I have to because no relationship can survive without trust, and if I truly love this man that I’m with, I know that being crazy and neurotic would only make things worse or eventually push him away.

During a crying session about it with a really good friend of mine, she made me think by saying: “Michael has proven himself to you over and over that he loves you and would never do anything to hurt you. What is it going to take for you to finally believe him?”

She’s absolutely right. What is it going to take? Nothing – because deep in my heart I know I love him, I’m meant to be with him and that everything will work out.

So jealousy, suspicion, and lies – get the hell out of here! I’m done with you effing with my relationship. I’m ready to let go.

About Rowena Winkler

Passionate Performer, Speaker and Writer by Calling, Dancer of All Good Beats, Yoga Practitioner and Enthusiast, Spiritual Trustee of the Universe, Traveler of Many Distant Lands, Lover of Derek the Logical but Amiable, Mother of Eponine/Dex/Teyla, Architect of Spoken Word Poetry, Trainer in the Craft of Communication, Unapologetic Individual, First of Her Name.
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1 Response to Learning to Just Trust – And Let Go

  1. Pingback: Getting Rid of the Negative: What I Don’t Need in 2011 | Rowena's Reverb

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